Davida
Saturday 27th May 2017 12:47pm
Oregon USA
502 posts
Interesting! I have bipolar disorder, so I have this sort of counterintuitive thing of getting more energized and peppy and hyper the less I sleep, which is what's been going on for the past couple of days. I feel like I function amazingly well when I don't sleep but in reality I'm probably a pretty scattered disorganized mess. But At least I'm not tired!
I think tonight I'm going to take benadryl in addition to my usual psych meds since they haven't been doing the trick these past few nights. The sleep med I normally take has been an absolute wonder drug for me. I've been on ambien and seroquel and a million other things and they all either left me groggy, brain dead, made me fat, did organ damage, or just didn't work. I've been an insomniac my entire life. For the first 25 years of my life (I'm 27) I was getting at worst no sleep, and at best about 6 hours, but usually only managing 2-5 hours a night. It really took a toll on my health and made my depressive episodes last between 8 months and 3.5 years, which is...very not fun. But now I take this mild blood pressure medication called clonidine that works for anxiety during the day, and at night it knocks me right out. No side effects, no tolerance, not addictive, no brain fog, no grogginess, and it only takes a quarter of a miligram to work. My quality of life has gotten SO much better since being prescribed clonidine, but I still get manic and depressive blips here and there, and mania tends to pop up in Spring time for me for some reason. So yeah I'll take benadryl tonight (diphenhydramine) with my regular meds to really zonk out and get a full night's sleep. I don't like to take benadryl because it leaves me very groggy in the morning. But it's good in "emergency" situations. I'm fine. I mean I feel fine. But I know I need to be vigilant when the psychosis starts creeping in. I also have a tendency to overshare when slightly manic....like right now!
I wonder if I can track down that programme about sleep. The kiwi thing sounds weird, but I do love kiwis. Was it a pretty scientifically rigorous programme?