Stan Doubt
Sunday 20th July 2008 8:09pm [Edited]
2,909 posts
Quote: RubyMae - Glamourous Snowdrop at large. @ July 20 2008, 2:17 AM BST
Okay this is not aimed at anyone here, I just need to rant somewhere safe. I'm not usually a heartless cow but I am not exactly having a good time myself and there are some people who are making it worse. I apologise in advance for this rather rude and mean rant but as you read, you may see why I feel such a need to vent.
I am stick to death dealing with everyone elses paranoia. I know the fact that someone with BDD talking about paranoia is so pot calling kettle black, it splits time and space but a) my excuse is an actual condition I cannot control and b) I am, and I'm gonna say it, FUCKED OFF TOTALLY. Why do people think it's all about them? I haven't called them in a week, I must hate them. I get on well with their best friend or boyfriend, I must be after them. I speak to other people, I must be bored of them personally. I am having a bad episode and can't face going out, I am making it up to avoid being seen with them. My msn is playing up, it's an excuse to avoid them. GROW UP! Just so I am clear, I am no ones sole property or out to get anyone and it is my pet peeve to be treated like it. I hate paranoia, it drives me insane. Believe it or not I actually have my own issues, innocent reasons behind things, and my own life! Get one. It will mean you leave me alone you selfish self absorbed idiots. Swap lives with someone who is REALLY suffering with ill health, no job, homeless, living with violence or torture, etc then complain how bad your life is cause you've had no emails today.
Sorry if this came across as mean. Put it down to Roo rage. Even Snowdrops lose it on the odd ocassion (This will shock Aaron to the core). I need a cookie. 
SOMEONE HUG ME!!! 
Rubes, you can't control other people's emotions, only your own. Why are you letting this get to you?
Maybe this'll help:
"There's not really much I can tell you at this point that you don't already know. About the two brain theory. How your conscious mind holds on to emotions, while your subconscious has already let it go. In the most extreme case of a panic attack it takes only twenty minutes for your body – your subconscious – to turn any uncomfortable situation into an enjoyable one. Endorphins are released. I wonder why it doesn't tell your conscious mind about any of this?
Maybe it does? Maybe it's telling you, ‘Hey, I'm starting to enjoy things now.' And maybe you're confusing that enjoyment with having the emotion itself? Maybe that's why so many people grab hold of their anger, nerves, worry or depression so tightly, they believe they enjoy it. That and that amount of effort tires you out, stopping you from handing it over to your body to deal with. God knows what would happen if an already tired body had to deal with your worry too. And anger gives you energy, that's obvious.
I'm trying to find a non-patronising way to say this. Your body has six million years to evolve to deal with any form of emotion, how long has your conscious mind had? Twenty, thirty, forty years? At most ninety, maybe a hundred if you're lucky. Six million years.
Next time you feel strong emotion, relax, drop it to your body to deal with and start enjoying yourself. Trust your body, no matter how tired you are - it can deal with anything a lot quicker and easier than you can. Take the easy way out."
I guess what I'm saying is it's up to you to decide whether to hang on to your annoyances or not. If other people are upset, paranoid or whatever, feel sorry for them, because they're kinda wasting their life (you only get one) and impacting their health with the stress it brings.
